Chronicles of a SAHM, My Christian Walk

Where are they now?

After a short conversation with my husband this morning, I realized what I believe to have been a missed opportunity: the opportunity to give God the glory for what our country is experiencing.

Why are there no laying of hands by the evangelical pastors or praying and fasting in front of the White House- without ceasing? Why haven’t we seen ANY representation from our Christian leaders while the president is going through this illness aside from the occasional social media video?

Was their presence in the White House (pre-Covid) merely a photo op?

It seems that the only time we see or hear of Christianity is when it benefits either the president or the pastors. When evangelicals wanted to choose judges – they were there. When evangelical pastors wanted a part of the stimulus package – we saw them. When they wanted to get to choose a Supreme Court Justice – we saw them. But where are they now?

Our country is going through a pandemic that is responsible for almost a quarter of million deaths in the United States, a recession, high unemployment numbers and an infected and irrational president. We have the largest racial divide this country has seen in half a century and climate changes, which are ravaging every side of this country.

We’re so used to depending on our nation’s intelligence and top scientists to help lead us out of most of these emergencies, but this is above us now. Our “ship” seems rudderless. We don’t know who to trust in our government, the media, or even our neighbors. So this would’ve have been the best time to hear God’s holy word on the largest platform in the world. Can you imagine if they had put God first?

We need prayer. We need to call on Him as a collective – for guidance, comfort and peace. It is our duty as Christians to “Be diligent to present yourself approved to God, a worker who does not need to be ashamed, rightly dividing the word of truth.” ~ (2 Timothy 2:15) Now is not the time to be silent.

Let’s also give God the glory right now for bringing us out of this. Let’s praise Him right where we are for giving us another day to get it right. “Rejoice always,  pray without ceasing,  give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you.” (1 Thessalonians 5:16-18)

Pray for one another and pray that our country can heal and that no more lives will be lost as a result of ego, incompetence, or irrationality. We need to pray for our pastors, our politicians, our neighbors and our planet.

It’s not too late to get it right. Even if they don’t show up, we should.

Chronicles of a SAHM, Journaling

“Faith without Works is Dead”

I ask for the Lord to use me daily -to be a light for others to see His goodness.  I also ask for the Lord to bless my creativity.  My heart is always in the right place, just not my head and for that reason, I have made a very costly error in not moving when the Spirit tells me to move.

A year ago, I was blessed with an idea that could make a huge impact in the world. I only told my husband about it because I didn’t want anyone else to steal the idea.  I worked on it for about a week, but allowed my finances to be an excuse to not continue.  I looked for patents – none were found – not even pending. I knew that I would have to hire an attorney and then pay for the patents.  The costs seemed to keep piling up, so to add another bill was just not a smart thing to do (flesh talking).  But God gave me that idea, right?  I knew the Lord wouldn’t bring me that far and leave me.  So, I did the easy parts; bought the supplies, created a journal to document the ideas over time and I even tried to make it myself.  Then, I put it all in a drawer and left it alone.

Some time later, my husband asked what I was going to do with my idea.  I told him that I needed help with drawing.  He told me to try it on my own.  He told me to add the free apps to help me with drawing. So I tried.  I worked on it for another week or so, then lost interest.

I always kept in the back of my head, thinking…”I need to work on that” but then, I didn’t for one reason or another -“It’s too expensive,” “I don’t have time,” and “It’s no longer needed.”

Late last night, I opened my facebook page and what was staring at me in my face?  The idea the Lord gave to me.  Except, it didn’t have my name on it…deservedly so.  It was on a major news website. I couldn’t even be upset. I could not even cry.  It was my own fault. The Lord supplied my needs according to my faith, but as it said in James 2:14-26, “Faith without works is dead.”  He handed me bread to eat because I was hungry, but I didn’t eat because I was too lazy to lift my hand to my mouth.

I can only pray that I do better when given another opportunity.

I decided to write about it today because I believe it’s important to share my trials just as I share my testimonies and so others dont make the same mistake.  Keep the faith, keep praying and keep going- don’t quit.

Chronicles of a SAHM

Definitely a message for me today!

cross at sunsetBut may the God of all grace, who called us to His eternal glory by Christ Jesus, after you have suffered a while, perfect, establish, strengthen, and settle you. http://bible.com/114/1pe.5.10.nkjv

Chronicles of a SAHM, poetry

Cracked Foundation

My foundation is cracked. My dad passed in 1989 and my mom, earlier this year.

My foundation is cracked.

I’ve not had an easy life. I’ve been raped, cheated on, lied to.
I’ve had disloyal friends. Worse – I’ve had disloyal family members.
My foundation is cracked.

I’ve had a car repossessed, a home foreclosed and lost valuable things in a flood.

Some days it feels like no one has my back.
I know that “Better days are coming” – they always do!
“Joy comes in the morning,” right?
“What I’m going through right now is preparing me for the things I asked for,” right?
“There is light at the end of the tunnel.” Okay.

It is just so hard at times.  I know God has me. I know that. It’s just hard.

Without my parents and grandparents, my foundation is definitely cracked.
But with God, I guess I am just thankful I even have the foundation.

 

Chronicles of a SAHM, Thinking of Mom

My Roots

I’ve had my mom on my mind for days. I miss her so much. She passed in January and it’s been so hard for me just realizing that she’s not here. I was so used to being able to call her just to say hello- knowing she would be there.

My friend wrote on her Facebook page the other day about how much she misses her grandparents and her parents. She said that although she has a strong group of support from family now, it’s not the same as having her roots. It’s what I had been trying to verbalize this whole time. I don’t have my roots. No grandparents, no parents – It’s just me. There’s no parachute, no Plan B. If I fail, then I fail and it’s just me – but when I succeed… well at least I can give them thanks. Thanks for raising me to be who I am. Thanks for giving me the love and guidance I needed when you were here, and thanks for introducing me to God.

God has been my rock. He has been my shoulder to cry on in the middle of the night when my support team is asleep. He’s always awake and He always listens.

He also let me know this morning that I now have to follow the examples of my parents and grandparents. I now have to become “the roots” for my children. I have to instill in them the goodness of the Lord. I have to establish in them, a foundation in Christ. If I didn’t have God in my life right now, I know that I wouldn’t make it. Life has dealt me some pretty hard blows, but I’m still standing…But God. I give Him the glory and the praise. He is the reason I woke up this morning.

So today will be my Day 1. I am going to embrace the lessons I have been taught by my “roots” and I am going to share them with my seedlings, so that they continue to develop and grow into the Light.

good morning.

Chronicles of a SAHM

Within Me

There is no greater translation of God’s Word, than is the discernment from the Holy Spirit, which resides in me.

There are no scholars who can explain the depth of each word meant only for my heart. It is with the Lord, where I find my strength. It is with Him that I am able to conquer my fears.

Within me, I can find Him. Its where I find peace, love, comfort, joy and a place of rest.