Chronicles of a SAHM, Journaling

“Faith without Works is Dead”

I ask for the Lord to use me daily -to be a light for others to see His goodness.  I also ask for the Lord to bless my creativity.  My heart is always in the right place, just not my head and for that reason, I have made a very costly error in not moving when the Spirit tells me to move.

A year ago, I was blessed with an idea that could make a huge impact in the world. I only told my husband about it because I didn’t want anyone else to steal the idea.  I worked on it for about a week, but allowed my finances to be an excuse to not continue.  I looked for patents – none were found – not even pending. I knew that I would have to hire an attorney and then pay for the patents.  The costs seemed to keep piling up, so to add another bill was just not a smart thing to do (flesh talking).  But God gave me that idea, right?  I knew the Lord wouldn’t bring me that far and leave me.  So, I did the easy parts; bought the supplies, created a journal to document the ideas over time and I even tried to make it myself.  Then, I put it all in a drawer and left it alone.

Some time later, my husband asked what I was going to do with my idea.  I told him that I needed help with drawing.  He told me to try it on my own.  He told me to add the free apps to help me with drawing. So I tried.  I worked on it for another week or so, then lost interest.

I always kept in the back of my head, thinking…”I need to work on that” but then, I didn’t for one reason or another -“It’s too expensive,” “I don’t have time,” and “It’s no longer needed.”

Late last night, I opened my facebook page and what was staring at me in my face?  The idea the Lord gave to me.  Except, it didn’t have my name on it…deservedly so.  It was on a major news website. I couldn’t even be upset. I could not even cry.  It was my own fault. The Lord supplied my needs according to my faith, but as it said in James 2:14-26, “Faith without works is dead.”  He handed me bread to eat because I was hungry, but I didn’t eat because I was too lazy to lift my hand to my mouth.

I can only pray that I do better when given another opportunity.

I decided to write about it today because I believe it’s important to share my trials just as I share my testimonies and so others dont make the same mistake.  Keep the faith, keep praying and keep going- don’t quit.

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Chronicles of a SAHM, Journaling

Spring Break?

As you probably know already, I’m a stay-at-home mom. That means when spring break for the kids rolls around – my mommy duties increase dramatically.  There is no break for me. There are more meals to make, clothes and dishes to wash and my “me” time is eliminated entirely.

I thought that at least this time around would be different.  My son isn’t home and it’s just me, my husband and my five year old daughter.  HOWEVER… on day one of spring break, my daughter complained of an earache.  So, I of course decided to try some home remedies and prayer because I was not trying to sit in anybody’s hospital for nine hours.  I tried the essential oils on cotton I found on Pinterest. I tried the neck massage I found on YouTube. I even tried the steamy bath water. It worked…for one night.  But then, the next morning, my baby girl woke up with her eyes stuck together.  Now mind you, the school had been sending paperwork about children having pink eye in school since September but so far, it hadn’t affected my daughter…that is, until this week – spring break.

So, off to the doctor’s office we went.  Turns out, she had a double ear infection and two pink eyes…(because one just won’t do for a princess.) She couldn’t see or hear me. Poor thing – although, I’m not sure which of us to whom I’m referring.  We received her prescriptions, came home and started to work on her right away.

Today, she’s much better.  Her hearing isn’t back 100% yet, but at least she doesn’t have crusty eyes.  Spring break is almost over and I haven’t gotten much work done nor have I had any time to myself, but my daughter is feeling better. That’s really what matters to me.  It should also be noted that she isn’t in school to pass along the germ that she’d received from that petri dish they call kindergarten either, so maybe the cycle is broken.  Perhaps my daughter saved the school from shutting down entirely due to a pink eye epidemic (my words).  Maybe, just maybe she saved other parents from having to take off work and take their children out of school to care for them for a few days. clipart-superhero-6

My child is a hero.

So I guess it has been a pretty good spring break after all.

Chronicles of a SAHM

Definitely a message for me today!

cross at sunsetBut may the God of all grace, who called us to His eternal glory by Christ Jesus, after you have suffered a while, perfect, establish, strengthen, and settle you. http://bible.com/114/1pe.5.10.nkjv

Chronicles of a SAHM, Thinking of Mom

My Roots

I’ve had my mom on my mind for days. I miss her so much. She passed in January and it’s been so hard for me just realizing that she’s not here. I was so used to being able to call her just to say hello- knowing she would be there.

My friend wrote on her Facebook page the other day about how much she misses her grandparents and her parents. She said that although she has a strong group of support from family now, it’s not the same as having her roots. It’s what I had been trying to verbalize this whole time. I don’t have my roots. No grandparents, no parents – It’s just me. There’s no parachute, no Plan B. If I fail, then I fail and it’s just me – but when I succeed… well at least I can give them thanks. Thanks for raising me to be who I am. Thanks for giving me the love and guidance I needed when you were here, and thanks for introducing me to God.

God has been my rock. He has been my shoulder to cry on in the middle of the night when my support team is asleep. He’s always awake and He always listens.

He also let me know this morning that I now have to follow the examples of my parents and grandparents. I now have to become “the roots” for my children. I have to instill in them the goodness of the Lord. I have to establish in them, a foundation in Christ. If I didn’t have God in my life right now, I know that I wouldn’t make it. Life has dealt me some pretty hard blows, but I’m still standing…But God. I give Him the glory and the praise. He is the reason I woke up this morning.

So today will be my Day 1. I am going to embrace the lessons I have been taught by my “roots” and I am going to share them with my seedlings, so that they continue to develop and grow into the Light.

good morning.

Chronicles of a SAHM

Within Me

There is no greater translation of God’s Word, than is the discernment from the Holy Spirit, which resides in me.

There are no scholars who can explain the depth of each word meant only for my heart. It is with the Lord, where I find my strength. It is with Him that I am able to conquer my fears.

Within me, I can find Him. Its where I find peace, love, comfort, joy and a place of rest.